School starts today so I am having mixed emotions about the whole deal. These emotions make me a bit crazy, and I'm sure I act a bit crazy because of them....just ask anyone.
I start with so much excitement, I can barely contain it! The idea of going back to school is so life-altering and has so much potential for my future plans...awesome! Then I go to, FREAKING OUT SCARED OUT OF MY MIND....ahhhh homework. What do I do, work all day, go to school in the evening, come home and PASS OUT...when do I hold my child? When do I snuggle? When do I nurse? Do I pump? Do I not pump? All of a sudden I am worried....the health and well-being of LO is the most important; after all that is why I am going to school, right? I keep reminding myself, it will be ok, tomorrow will come and this part of my life (school + mommyhood + work) will end and because of it I will be better off. Calming, relaxing emotions develop and take over! Now I'm back to excitement!
I brought my pump just in case I need it. 10 1/2 - 11 hours away from LO is probably too long not to pump, so it seems the pump and I have rekindled our relationship....it's short term though...only June.
Welcome to my roller coaster :)
So school starts today.
Here's my plan for the next 4 weeks Monday - Thursday:
Work 8:30-3:30 (I didn't get to work until 9:00)
Get to campus 4:00 - find classroom and a comfy bench - knit
Class starts 4:30!
Go home (probably after 7:00)
NURSE, NURSE, NURSE...it's how the evenings work in my life.
Hopefully I will have limited homework (after all it is a summer class....)
Good thoughts and prayers flowing to my hubby who will probably need them as he will be with LO alone from 5-7....aka "CRANKY TIME".
It'll be ok, it'll be ok......
I'll report tomorrow how it went.